Recently today I realized that I am in fact a trans girl. I made a post about it in !asktransgender@lemmy.blahaj.zone and after that I was reflecting a lot on my past, the mistakes I’ve made, and I realize I’ve made a lot of them. I’ve said horrible things about and to LGBTQ people, and just awful shit in general when I was younger. I was a young and stupid kid and I would say horrible things online, things I heard from other people or read online. Things I now regret and feel horrible about. I know I can never excuse any of them just because I was younger but I do deeply regret those mistakes, and I am deeply sorry I said any of those things. I know that isn’t an excuse but I hope people can find it in them to forgive me for my awful mistakes and accept me as a new person.
often people who are repressed will find ways to express feelings they dont understand even in unhealthy ways. its not an abnormal reaction to lash out at people who you dont realize are a lot like yourself, because you are dealing with the learned bigotry and hatred that society, and by extension you, are placing on yourself. now that you see what a powerful effect hatred can have on somebody, how it can warp and skew their perspective, i think its time to let yourself accept some love, and the healing power it has, dont be too hard on yourself, just work on improving yourself.
Thank you for your kind words, I know that I can’t be too hard on myself and that I need to move on and start accepting the love. What I’ve done was not okay but I am a new person and I’m working to become better, and I will not make the same mistakes I made back then.