even just one

i was referring to the meaning behind the poem as well as the act of sharing it publicly like this

thanks, but i don’t feel very proud of this

i think i’m starting to unravel my attachment issues and the reasons i pull away from those i love

Have you been in a codependent relationship?

i can tell you about my last relationship privately, but it was obviously very different to your current situation

LGBTQ people are some of the most caring, sweet, and loving people

without question, i know this to be true of you

Just get started and follow what calls you

as you unearth your true self and undergo the journey into that unsettling unknown, don’t let the uncertainty upset your unending urge for authenticity and self actualization

i send you love 🪄✨💖💜💗💜💖✨

i wouldn’t call that a weapon, in the context that it was used. more of a specialty tool and now a symbol.

at this point, i’m not planning to go. i have no one to go with me, don’t own or feel comfortable having a weapon, and live in a generally unsafe place (Louisiana). i’ll attempt to go to a support group next month. right now i have no one.

god i would love that so much. maybe one day ❤️

i still don’t even have a Blahaj. i would much rather cuddle with a person though.

i’ve never gone, and this encapsulates some of my many fears and doubts.

i’m really sorry that happened to you, and i hope that you have real friends in your life now that are there for you ❤️

i don’t think i’m gonna go to public events, but i did at least find a local support group, and i’m gonna try to go there.

(idk when, or even if, i can return to the matrix side; i don’t know why. but i wanna make sure y’all know i’m okay.)

wanna talk about it? i feel like i’m in a similar emotional state right now.

Are you planning to go to any Pride events? You don’t have to be out. Typically, everyone is welcome.

very much looking forward to it Nev 💖

Sometimes less is more. xD

I was gonna put more details there, but idk. I guess I felt weird detailing my sexuality (and sexual frustrations) on someone else’s post when I had already expressed it in a meme. Not sure if you saw the meme though. I posted a censored version in the !transmemes@lemmy.blahaj.zone and !traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns@lemmy.ca communities.

Hypothetically, if you had unlimited options with infinite success rates, what kind of friends would you add to your social circle first?

I really want to have girl and trans girl friends irl. I want to be around fem people that can maybe help me with girl stuff like fashion, and trans girl stuff like passing. So in the hypothetical, I’d probably want trans girl friends first.

Also, I don’t really have a social circle anymore. I have floated from/to different friend groups over the years. But I was severely addicted to drugs for a while, and those friends weren’t the best. I cut ties to two out of three of the last “friends” some time before the pandemic. The last friend was and is a good person, but we drifted apart.

Would definitely offer you my friendship application! If you feel like chatting, DM me and I’ll send you my matrix details.

Application approved! lol Since Mbin users can’t currently DM Lemmy users, I sent you my matrix ID using my recently created lemmy.ca account.

I read the title like the ad for OS1 in the movie Her:

Who are you? Where are you going?

You really need to see Her if you haven’t yet. Like seriously.

Anyway, here’s some stuff:

Gender identity

• Gender Spectrum: Feminine Trans Girl

Attraction to others

• Sexuality: Yes lol. Maybe bisexual? idk

• Romantic…ality?: idk…

Social traits

• Platonic affinity: I could use some girl friends irl, or just friends in general.

At first, I read the title like that “I am the captain” meme. 😄️

I’m over a year on HRT and still don’t fully understand my own sexuality. Is it attraction to women or envy? Is it attraction to men or a need for gender affirmation? Idk. I just know that I have strong desires and ambitions. 🫠