holy shit… I do this too. for a while I fought it off, but I think that’s making it hit harder. I say this to myself at work a LOT and ive done it talking to friends and had to apologize. I’m super here for you if you need to say anything. sending internet hugz.
good luck to you!!!
Sorry to hear. Best wishes, friend.
Thanks so much for recommending both books. I will be sure to give both a read soon.
Interesting point of view. Honestly I guess I am kinda broken in that regard, I miss the constant fixations a lot, I feel so bored and helpless when I have nothin’ to focus on. it does sound to me like your hope is ultimately to control that, in which case I wish you the absolute best.
That fantasy world is so relatable it hurts. Except for the times when I go to bed, I always have my headphones in, using the music to imagine a different life for myself with the soundtracks. One time I even called out of work because I couldn’t find my earbuds and didn’t want to brace reality.
I wish the best for you both. Hope things start to look up.
i’m so sorry you have felt this way before. it really feels like im going insane sometimes. this morning i took a 1 hour ride up to the mountains and just stared down a canyon cliff and pondering. i just feel so trapped.